February 2012
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Wake up alone
It’s okay in the day I’m staying busy Tied up enough so I don’t have to wonder where is he Got so sick of crying So just lately When I catch myself I do a 180 I stay up clean the house At least I’m not drinking Run around just so I don’t have to think about thinking That silent sense of content That everyone gets Just disappears soon as the sun sets This...
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Little green square
I can’t help feeling sad when you’re not around. I really thought you were hiding from me, and that you want nothing to do with me. I guess that’s just my negative thoughts chasing my sanity. Well, I shouldn’t have done that. I should not think like that anymore in the future. Because it turns out, you wanted to talk to me too. Otherwise, why would you reply to my long lost...
“Have you ever laid on your bed at night & just cried? Cried because...”
Foutremerde.
BU has everything I want. I actually like the courses they provide for International Relations. They also have a Journalism program I can minor in. It is located in a bustling city and is very urban (very important for me). It also has a lot of state-of-the-art student facilities and nice residence halls. Plus, it was ranked higher than Tufts & GWU by Times Higher Education’s Top 200...
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Stop judging me, woman.
Gosh. You know what, I am getting SICK of being treated like this. Hey, mom, for the hundredth time, I am NOT underestimating UI. I know exactly well how reputable & prestigious it is and how hard it is to get in. Just because it’s going to give you and dad a lot of pride if I got into that school doesn’t mean you have the right to judge me (and you’re forcing me to apply...
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Can you meet me halfway?
Just did a little bit of thinking (notice how it’s always done at night? My mind seem to be running a little clearer this time of day).
Oooh, I can’t go any further than this. I want you so badly, it’s my biggest wish. Can you meet me halfway, right at the borderline? That’s where I’m gonna wait for you. I’ll be lookin’ out, night and day Took my heart...
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Le premier amour
I believe that you will one day be wearing the same shoes I am wearing right now. Of course, it’s not literal, but you’ll someday see. It will take a LONG time, I know. But I’m certain it’ll happen.
I’m tired of spending every night thinking of you, but knowing you don’t think of me. I’m tired of trying, and knowing you don’t appreciate my effort...
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It’s a good thing tears never show in the pouring rain As if a good thing ever could make up for all the pain There’ll be no last chance, I promise to never mess it up again Just the sweet pain of watching your back as you walk As I’m watching you walk away And now you’re gone, there’s like an echo in my head And I remember every word you said It’s a cool...
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Love Day
This day is always linked to the romantic kind of love. In fact, it coats Valentine’s Day so heavily that other types of love—filial, storge, and of course, agape—become masked. It’s not like I’m against romance (I’m totally up for it, I just don’t have someone to share it with right now), but I feel that Valentine’s Day has a deeper meaning to it.
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I stay in love.
23:18.
I know it’s late, and for the sake of my health I shouldn’t be staying up. I just finished dinner at around 9pm, and I’m not used to eating so late (usually, I stop eating at 6pm/7pm). So here I am, unable to sleep. When I switched on the computer I was kind of hoping he’d be there, the green little box next to his name. He was there last night, but I didn’t...
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“I’m not one of those people who doesn’t have to work at it. I...”
– Beyoncé to Self Magazine.
I’m so glad that I’m not alone. And I’ve got Beyoncé to look up to :)
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Fresh
I changed the layout of my blog :D Took some time picking out the right theme and adjusting the codes and stuff. Do you like it? :D I wanted something different because it’s a new year for me. Maybe it’s a little late, but hey, better late than never!
So anyways after seeing the pic above I’m pretty sure you get the point of this post: I want to be a positive person this...
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My dog never broke my heart
I thank God He let me keep a dog. I think it’s one of the greatest decisions I’ve ever made. Ever since I was very young, I grew up with a dog. Though my first dog, Matle, isn’t nearly as friendly as my current dog, Nike, except with my dad. I wasn’t very close to dogs then. In 8th grade, one of my friends’ dog gave birth to Dachshund-mix puppies. Ofc, I begged my...
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“Exactly. They expected to lose. And therefore, they lost… But I always...”
– Billy the Kid in Michael Scott’s ‘The Secrets of the Immortal Nicholas Flamel: The Necromancer’.
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Why fashion is (for now) not for me.
I started caring about how I look from the moment I hit puberty. Since then, it had almost developed into an obsession. I hate that I’m fat, that my arms are huge (and so is my ass, hence my thick thighs) and it feels as if every bite of food I take transforms immediately into fat, not having the chance to initially convert into energy. I am through with looking at myself in the mirror.
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Melt My Heart to Stone
Right under my feet there’s air made of bricks Pulls me down turns me weak for you I find myself repeating like a broken tune And I’m forever excusing your intentions And I give in to my pretendings Which forgive you each time Without me knowing They melt my heart to stone And I hear your words that I made up You say my name like there could be an us I best tidy up my head I’m...
Do you really need to come into my room and judge...
It’s not my fault you’re not listening. Don’t fucking blame me. Also, don’t me feel worse. I’m already feeling like shit. I even told you what went down and you didn’t want to listen. Not my fault. So don’t come in my room and say I’m “disrespectful” and “sinful”. Seriously?
Who the fuck are you to judge me?
*This tantrum...
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I miss you very much
But you’ll never know that, because I’ll never tell you.
I even sleep real late nowadays, I don’t know why. Maybe I’m secretly hoping you’ll show up. But I know you’ll never show up… nonetheless I keep on waiting.
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Semakin malam, semakin tebal.
Absence makes the heart grow fonder…
I wouldn’t give a second look at this statement two years ago. But ever since I fell for a guy who I can’t see everyday, I feel this statement come to life. I feel it deep within my soul, and it became a statement my mind kept repeating when my heart starts twisting at the thought of him.
I find that when the night comes thoughts of him...
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Where is your heart?
I don’t believe In the smile that you leave When you walk away And say goodbye Well I don’t expect The world to move underneath me But for God’s sake Could you try? I know that you’re true to me You’re always there You say you care I know that you want to be mine Where is your heart? ‘Cause I don’t really feel you Where is your heart? What I...
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January 2012
19 posts
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Have you ever loved someone so much
… it makes you cry? Have you ever needed something so bad You can’t sleep at night Have you ever tried to find the words But they don’t come out right
Have you ever been in love Been in love so bad You’d do anything to make them understand Have you ever had someone steal your heart away You’d give anything to make them feel the same Have you ever searched for words...
“C’est lui pour moi, moi pour lui dans la vie..”
– La Vie en Rose
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Yes, she is alive… This is my literature blog (that don’t mean I won’t post anything personal there, because I certainly will!). I noticed that I don’t really have a portfolio for the things I write, and while I’m alive I might as well document those things just so that I can look back in the future and do a little self-evaluation from time to time.
It’s going...
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4 and/or 4x2
I’m not a mind reader, neither are you. For now your name is a sad deja vu.
Sunny, Sunny..
This is a tacky song.
Jantungku berdetak tiap kuingat padamu. Sunny, sunny. Mengapa ada yang kurang saat kau tak ada?
But I feel my heart moist with wistfulness when I hear it.
Sunny, sunny. Melihat, menyentuhmu itu yang ku mau. Kau tak sempat tanyakan aku Cintakah aku padamu
When I stare into the night, I think of my own feelings.
Tiap kali, aku berlutut, aku berdoa Suatu...
Urgh. Effing hate jealousy.
Why can’t I just be grateful and see positive things over the negative? Maybe there are too many negative things around me. Perhaps it’s time for my heart to do a little spring cleaning.